People say I’m the life of the party,
‘Cause I tell a joke or two.
Although I might be laughing loud and hearty,
Deep inside I’m blue.
So take a good look at my face,
You’ll see my smile looks out of place.
If you look closer, it’s easy to trace,
The tracks of my tears.
UNTITLED !!
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LOST
I started a blog once long ago & today I came across this fabulous writer & after a while of wandering I realized it was me !! & now I don’t even know what to say ?
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I write when I’m bored !
“Do you like your coffee black or white ?”
do you ever get the feeling when every vein of your body dries up to painful thirst
when every nerve in your body screams for everything to end
the air grows tight around you
it starts suffocating you
you feel no love no regret no remorse just this empty dead feeling inside
nothing in this world matters then
you stand at the edge of an abyss waiting to plunge…. to take a leap in faith
your fierceness your determination frightens you and you realize how close you are to insanity
“Black please”
black its a wonder how many shades a color can have … how all of them mix together to give it its majesty.
“sugar or no sugar ma’am”
how people are clueless ? are they really that blind … can’t she see the fight I’m having with myself, with my conscience and insanity ?
can’t she see how hard I’m trying to reason with myself ….
“no sugar”
this waitress, she is standing being oblivious to ticking time bomb I’m ! But then again the ignorance saves her, if she only knew that i was a killer, i killed my mother’s dreams. I’m a fraud, i cheated my dad’s expectations. I’m a liar, a selfish, ego centric beast…but still I’m not that bad am I ?
“would you like cream with it ?”
Haha cream its a delicacy it’s very much like life…. a little overheated and its gets burnt just like mine
“no !! no cream…”
i hate things which are soft and delicate like i use to be
“as you wish ma’am”
as i wish ?
oh really someone finally in this world cares about my desires
i look at her she’d be a year younger than me her sparkling black eyes, her cheaply dyed brown curls, her strawberry soap fragrance and her neatly pressed uniform her name tag says her name Cynthia
“Cynthia ? right”
“um yes ma’am Cynthia with a “c” ”
she says with a bright smile
she’s hoping for a tip and she defiantly is in for a treat !
“well Cynthia how would you like to DIE ?”
It took her a moment to realize what I’ve said, an expression of pure shock crossed her eyes
“Bulls eye”
“um excuse me ?”
she’s calculating her options of escape
too much tv these days
she never even considers the option of me being insane
she just instantly jumped to conclusion of me being a serial killer or a vampire.
pathetic !!!
“well you heard me Cynthia with a “c”
how would you like to die
a simple death in your sleep, by an accident
or by being staked ?”
She swallows hard
her breathing increases by every passing second
looks like I’ve given her a real fright a scare Hahaha
she makes for the counter in a hurry to escape whatever evil I’ve planned for her
“Cynthia ?”
she comes to a halt
she’s terrified, She slowly turns to look at me her hands shaking along with the memo she’s holding
“bring the bill… !!!”
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Evil Eye !
When it comes to the human head, no feature has quite the reputation for villainy as the old hairy eyeball.
We don’t refer to the murderous mouth, the nasty nostril or the baleful ear. Oh, the tongue may lash, but its bark is worse than its bite. True terror resides in the eye.
It has always been this way, or at least as close to always as we can tell. The theme of the Evil Eye runs deep and wide in human history. Universally it describes a look inspired by maliciousness or jealousy. Also universally it is blamed for causing everything from garden-variety bad luck to toothaches, headaches, disease and death.
Why the eye?
“Staring is a way of asserting one’s dominance and of expressing interest in another person,” says Ohio State University psychologist Gerald Winer. “It can be viewed as an intrusion. And it’s a short step from casting a glance to casting a spell.”
You must be wondering why I am suddenly interested in all this “evil eye” business ? Well I was just sorting out somethings when I stumbled upon an old pendent …. an evil eye. I got it from an old aunt. 2 years ago I went to Hyderabad with my father on his business trip. We were invited to a dinner by one of his friends. As my father is too protective to leave me at the hotel room alone, he took me with him. At their house I was met by a huge family. They greeted us & I earned the most stares especially by all the old aunts, who mumbled things in sindhi like “ooww! she is a fair youth” & “Her dark hair shines with warmth of sun”(My sindhi is not that good, she said something relating to my hair , the sun & the sunlight, I made up the sentence) & ” She is not wearing any mascara or kajal — Oh God! save her “. As I was busy deciphering their mumbles an old women came to me, she took some kajal from her eye & placed a little dot on the base of my wrist. Oh God !!! I was so paranoid. When we were about to leave she gave me a bracelet woven in black thread, it had a blue stone in the center. Later I found out it was Lapis Lazuli which is suppose to protect you from evil eye.
I don’t know whether to believe it or not but she believed it as she advised me never to take it off, I took it off & lost it soon after that 😉
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Last year in college !
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A night in the forest !!!(8th july)
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“Facade —– My Subsistence”
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Forever alive !!!
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My Journey to Life !!!
When i’ll be long gone
and only partly remained,
the birds will be singing
as they knew me by name,
as i’ll be lying calmly in eternal bed,
the morning sun will be sowing new born seeds,
from where beautiful tomorrows will breed,
and a new day will start glittering bright
& i’ll be frozen in a lonely dark night …
The ancient buildings buried,
New’ll be constructed on the ruins,
The ocean water will rain to spring,
The sheded leaves will be grown again,
The fresh life will began,
So when the morning flame greets you, There my shadow will be,
And if you are unsure of its company,
Just know that its me,
Send me away with a farewell,
Dont look behind,
The time once gone never rewinds.
Just say one last goodbye,
& i’ll know now its safe to die !!!
I’ll go where my death leads me,
Where ever it is, its for eternity !!!
I ‘ll be alive with all the bliss
As I was never at the time
when people said I lived !!!
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mY waY t0 tHe daRk !!!
I’ve lost the Truth
can’t find the Light
there’s only Darkness by my side
The Shadows seep
into my soul bringing
me shades and
making me whole
An empty wholeness
so incomplete
an aching scar a pain so sweet
Come Darkness take my hand
and guide me to your
Promised Land !!!
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